Moderated because, sadly, I am a pound heavier than I was on Friday.
A win because I'm still on schedule and, frankly, after eating Indian food, a glazed donut and one of those ever-nummy (okay, the one I got wasn't that great, but the POTENTIAL is there!) jalapeno bagel thingys from Dunkies - I should be on my knees praising God it was just a single pound!
Plus, I had a bit of a sobering experience the other day. We are required to talk on camera as a part of our adoption profile. So, my husband and I were taking video and naturally rolled it back to see how it had gone. I looked over the footage of myself and...
...It really wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.
Which I want to take as a positive. It'd be nice to have some "facts" to come back at those mean little voices in my head when they tell me how bad I look. But, I've looked at myself in the mirror a hundred times and thought I looked good, only to have a photo taken moments later tell me otherwise.
Which leads me to the following point... how accurate are we, ever, when it comes to our self-image? To judging how we really look? I mean, we know there are obvious cases where people aren't matching up what is in the mirror to what they feel they look like. When it's a massive gap, I know, it's a psychological thing.
But, I've read about studies where people have been shown images of themselves, some photo-shopped to look better or worse. They were then asked to identify which one was the "real" one of them. They almost always picked the better looking photo-shopped images.
Which, sounds kind of eye-roll worthy but, can you imagine how sad it would be if we all picked the uglier ones?
I suppose it doesn't really matter. All of us are locked in our own heads - we're never going to truly see the heart/soul of another person. Smiles will still lead us to believe that the broken person is really happy, bravado that the grieving are strong.
That's such an obvious but... subversive concept though. When it comes to how you look, to just fight to have your body do what you want it to do and last as long as it can. Nothing more. Nothing less. If you want your body to fit into Slinky Dress #5, then make it happen. But make it happen because you think the dress is cool, not because your worth is based on how you look in it.
A nice concept. I honestly wonder whether it's every been successfully applied by someone who's run the spectrum of looking good to looking bad.
Ah well. That's enough psuedo-pop psychology for one day! Everyone push their glasses up on the bridge of their noses and attempt to look "smaht".
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